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I don't like being superstitious in life ..and I don't believe in signs (maybe sometimes) ...However, today as I was heading to work as my usual everyday rountine , I almost had three accidents and also ended up taking the wrong exit... and it was all my fault!

I still don't know why I couldn't see those cars or why I took the road that I don't usually take and left the one that I always take?!

It's amazing what the mind does to a person..

Well anyway.. I began to think that this is a bad start to a bad day, that maybe God was trying to tell me something, and it didn't help when I got almost runover by a maniac driving fast at the parking lot...

Trying to be the positive person that I am not :) ... I looked at the good side of it ...the very fact that I am Alive!

So I don't know if this is a sign or a compelete unawarness on my behalf.... But I know that I had a good day today.!

The Fighters

Today I read on a magazine cover that Women in Kuwait will not be allowed to leave the house after 8pm!? I was shocked! I then realized that its actually the law that was issued a month ago about women in Kuwait not working past 8pm....

I've heard some men as well as women stating that its a good law , they'll have enough time to spend with their kids etc...
I realised that it is because of such people, who only look at the issue from their perspective and not the nation as a whole, that we have to pay for whats coming.... Its a matter of time that the heading in the magazine will be a reality and not a typo!

What is going on in Kuwait is a road to catastrophe .. This rule is a shame to us ... While nations are building monuments, we're demolishing ones...

How can we allow others to play around with our lives while we watch.. or even worse flee!

What is happening has NOTHING to do with religion... we read about women ruling in Islam at the time of the Prophet (PBUH), we all heard stories about women fighting in wars, women writing, women helping in a much harsher time ... so how can we stand today and say that they can't even do this or that!

My issue here is not women...Everyone as I always say.. has the right to believe or live a life they think best fit them ... my issue here is enforcing their views on others... This is not democracy! ... Democracy should represent atleast the majority of the population .. but what democracy comes from Tribal, secular, benefits, money ... u name it...

There are issues that we may not like but accept due to democratic laws... but there are laws that should not be accepted and that is to do with our rights as citizens, individuals and most importantly Humans...

I hope that the people of Kuwait whom a I believe are capable in taking a stand (and i know they did) keep pushing for justice and never give up ... because we are the country (don't wait for people with so called authority..coz nothing will happpen)

Many people will look out for their benefit .. and those are the people who will accept .... and many will look out for the benefit of their country ..and those are the ones who'll fight ...The fighters !

Mr. Master

I have been living in the gulf region most of my life, but I don't know why only recently have i noticed the phenomena of what the egyptian call "Si Alsayed" or "mr. master" if am correct...

Everywhere i go i see the stereotypical husband with the belly or the one whos too skinny followed by 1 or sometimes 2 wives (could be sisters, daughters) covered head to toe... I am a firm believer that everyone has the right to chose their own life style...so I am not judging here .. I am just wondering if they are really a one big happy family..do the women choose to dress and live this way or is it a norm that they grown into?

Is this an increasing phenomena? or am I just starting to notice?

I just hope that whatever the reason is (which I am 100% sure its not religious but more cultural) that they're happy... maybe after all every woman really looks for Mr. Master ...!

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This also brings another point that been bugging me recently..."Stereo Typing" ... it is something that we do everyday but never feel its ugliness until we fall victims of it ... which was what happened to me...

I've recently been informed that I was stereotyped (if thats correct) as a person whos rich, spoilt and not hard worker being from where am from.. . which is totaly wrong! ...Atleast its not me!

Well, although i think that i proved them wrong... It still hurts to know that and it also puts more pressure on you to try to change others views .. which is not fair!

So being a victim of stereotyping... i can only go back and apologize for all the stereotyping that I've done on my behalf ... and here it goes ....My apologies to all:

Egyptians,Saudis,Americans,Qataris,Syrian,Indians, Pakistanis,Phillipinos,Persians, Beduoins, long bearded short dressed, covered head to toe, Mexicans, Africans......

Sorry for any acts that may have, intentionally or unintentionally , been influenced by the stereotype disease!..

Poetic Thoughts

I had a long day at work today .. not much to do.. so as usual ..I was swimming deep into my thoughts (which turned out not that deep after all) ... I decided to turn my thoughts into poems ... Well although they sound childish ,,, I like them ,,, So i thought I'd post them anyway ...


Never Around:

Everywhere I've searched for you
I believed our love was true
(but)You were nowhere to be found
(and) I could not understand
that the truth is; you were never around..

Like a mirage amid a desert land
As i get closer your water would turn into sand
(and) I don't know why i keep running to you
As I always Knew you can never be found
(and) I could not understand the truth
that you where never around.

Life:

Fear, when I find myself on the ground,
I see the world above me, and my legs find it hard to move around
Like a new born, i feel, the need to survive, wanting to be alive,
so i take my first step, Hard, very Hard, I feel lost, I don't know what to do.

Today, I know, I can run, I can stand,
Suddenly I find myself above all, everything seems small,
and I know when I fall, I can stand up tall,
and so the fear i once felt, seems to dissapear .

Prayer to God

Ya Rab;

I asked for the opportunity to start a new life and you grant me my wish.. now i know that I am at the begining of the road here but I feel that i am failing to make the best out of it.. and for this God, i would like to say a prayer:

Please God forgive me if i evr doubted in what i shouldn't..
Please God forgive me if i abused myself, if i was ever lost and lost faith in you..
if i ever let you down to please others..
if i don't turn to you when am alone and lost..
Please forgive my prayers that i did not take my time to connect with you..
Please forgive my mistakes.. and the mistakes yet to come..
Please forgive me if my actions caused or could cause any harm to others for i don't want to harm anyone but i still want to live a life of my own..
Please God give me the strenght to stand up when am falling down..
Please God show me the right path if am walking on the wrong path..
Pleas God allow me to love myself so i can love others..
Please God give me the love in life.. give me a true friend that can bring the best in me..
You blessed me with so many privilage in my life... let me appreciate them
I ask you God if i am ever lost, wrong, alone, scared, depressed, weak... to never let me fall without standing back and help me to gain faith and confidence..
God, I thought that my faith and beliefs and my life are contradicting one another.. but they don't have to .. Allow me to see, believe, and live that..
Please god give me strength when am about to give up ..

God, you gave me an opportunity to start over, I know that i deserve it, i know I can be what I want to be if i believe in my self, and most importantly in You..
I ask you God to help me make the most of this opportunity.. To not waste any precious time.. to enjoy it.. to work hard for it.. to find love in it.. to help out .. to grow up .. to accept.. to ignore.. to connect.. to appreciate.. to make up ..
I don't believe that I am a bad person... but I know that I made and continue to make bad choices.. I ask you God once again to forgive my choices and help me avoid ones that are unforgivable.. though I know that you are most mercifull..


I am sorry God for the Past .. And I am looking forward for the Future..

Thank you God for all the blessings.. and for always being there..

Sex and the city

Well am stuck in this city , no friends , no one to talk to!

I am in love..

I like this city, its full of HOT people.. Hot guys Hot girls everywhere..

Yet everynite am alone .. no one to touch, feel, love..

So in this city the only sex i was getting .. was from me!

Love

How can a four letter word be so powerful?!

I've never been an advocate of love and relationships... maybe since I've never had one

Sometimes i feel that love is overrated ( Hollywood kind of love that is), but other times when am alone, depressed or misunderstood, I feel that its hard to live without that special somone who you can open up to, cry, touch, laugh, and be yourself... Today is one of those days for me.

I've never been in love before with someone ( i liked so many people, but its a one sided thing). I have a hope, belief... you name it.. that someday I will meet someone special..someone i can be intimate with.. escape to .. whoever or whatever that person is ... am sure they're waiting to cross my path .

Love , truely a powerful word, for its not only active when you have someone, but also whilst you are waiting for that person..

For the time being... I'll appreciate my love to my family, friends, and life....and most importantly God.